Life is Hard

Life is hard. Life is not fair. These statements were not made clear to me until recently, which is funny since I almost died, or did die, multiple times due to a rare genetic disorder I was born with. I am blessed to be alive, but after struggling all my life, fighting to get to where I am now, I wonder what the meaning of life is, what my meaning for life is. Why am I alive? I want to help others in whatever way I can. I give to charity, to beggars on the streets, and pay my tithes, but I still cannot get to the position I want to be in life. I want to be in the position where I have the freedom to help as many people as I can. But it is not easy helping another when you struggle to support your family. I am now trying to find employment, trying to find my way in the world, a position that can afford me the freedom of helping others tackle life, but life makes this very hard. Looking for work sucks. It is one of the worst things professionals must do. Why is the job search designed to take human interactions out of the job hiring process. I no longer can meet face to face with the hiring manager and ask to apply to a job, I must instead apply online where the only feedback I get is a reply that the application was received. That is all the feedback you get until you get a chance to have an interview, after sending hundreds of these applications to the void. And after that interview, where finally you get to see and talk to another person, you hope and pray you get the job only to be rejected to start the process anew. The worse part of it is that careers are dying now. No longer does a worker get to work 10+ years in a company where they get raises, promotions, and recognition. No, now you only get raises or promotions by finding new employment. Necessitating the need to throw your resume in the void year after year. This is not fair. This system sucks. It is the worst. Where is society headed to? I went to school to get two master’s, and one bachelor’s degree to be relegated to flinging my job applications into the blackness of the internet hoping some AI will see the value in my resume. I want to help society, but I cannot do that if I don’t have solid, secure employment. Why must you do me like this life? Did I hurt you in some way? Life is hard. Life is not fair. It sucks. But life is something we all strive for. To live. To experience life. Life can be hard, but it can also bring joy, happiness, and excitement. The only way to be with family and friends is to be alive. To experience the thrill of eating an ice cream, drinking a soda, or watching a Formula One race. To be alive you must deal with the many negatives of life. So, am I happy I chose life? Yes, I am. I am happy I get the opportunity to overcome these obstacles in my life. Although they are hard, and it is depressing when I struggle to overcome these trials, they make me stronger. They allow me to see what is wrong with society so when I do get the opportunity to help others, I will know what problems to tackle. So, although life is hard, and unfair, and sucks at times, I will continue to fight and overcome the many obstacles in my life. And if I use the past to deduce the future, there will be many, many obstacles to overcome. Life is hard...